It’s time. I’m giving in. It’s harder to live the bullshit I’m living then just give in to what the universe has in store for me. I weighed in at 248 lbs the other day. I eat sweets everyday. The stress would kill me if I let it. I’m done with it all. I’m done with food being cheap and shitty and full of shit and sugar. I’m done drinking to feel alive. I’m don’t threatening my daughter that I will sleep on the couch just because I want her to sleep faster. She’s just a little girl. I want to be better to her and myself. It starts now.