Cheers to us! It’s been an interesting road… excited to be on the other side of the speed bumps.. this is a cheers to you John welcome to the karass!!

To a new start!

A side gig.. a side quest.. a reinvigorator!

It’s like it was meant to be. Or no one else would take me lol… but in terms of letting go like Michael Singer has taught me it’s in its truest sense coming full circle. It took a little to let my pride come down to go back to a low paying basic job. But I do believe it happened for a reason. And only time will tell.

It has been nice going back to the theater to see movies. Seen 4 already and can’t wait for more!

It’s hard to say goodbye tit he free sugary icees and popcorn. But it’s time for a change. Becoming my truest self!

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It’s interesting when you get surprised in life. Sometimes they are truly surprising other times just a little bit. This time was a big one. A shocker. Family has always been a big thing for me. I have had rifts before and find ways to work them out.

Being surprised by my in-laws after not seeing them for almost 3 years was a big deal. It was kinda awkward and weird but it’s ok. I give them props for breaking the ice. And most importantly showing some love to Rumi.

Batiquitos is a place that I’ve come to Love. We go on an hour long walk almost every day me and Matthew during the week and I absolutely enjoy it so much.

One of my major goals in life now is to be able to own a house that’s attached to this lagoon.

It’s time. I’m giving in. It’s harder to live the bullshit I’m living then just give in to what the universe has in store for me. I weighed in at 248 lbs the other day. I eat sweets everyday. The stress would kill me if I let it. I’m done with it all. I’m done with food being cheap and shitty and full of shit and sugar. I’m done drinking to feel alive. I’m don’t threatening my daughter that I will sleep on the couch just because I want her to sleep faster. She’s just a little girl. I want to be better to her and myself. It starts now.

There are some big things coming. I have been working hard to make some much needed changes. And starting I see and feel the repercussions of that hard work. And can’t wait for what’s next!

I am really starting a whole new life. again.

and this time i am really giving it a good go.

puting forth my best effort to be a great Dad, Husband, human being.

I havent been the best friend to many hence why I don’t have many friends.

My wife is one of my true friends. I have a few still but. they are disintegrating..

So I’ll continue to take any luck I can get as we enter the next stage as our family has grown.

Zelda is about 7 1/2 years old as I write this. She has been nothing but a blessing and and I am grateful everyday.. I literally relish with her everyday.. I usually plop myself down on the beanbag with her at some point most days and hug her and remind her of all our good times, and tell her how much I love her.. Because it is true. I really do love her.. like many people have said before mans best friend… no joke. Most loyal ever. I have had many friends come and go… Thank you Zelda. I hope you live super long. I owe you a backpacking trip. I think you would like it. Hope to update with that trip in the future. To another day!